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Even tho it has been a year and 5 months and you put me thru sooo much pain .I miss just talking to you ,your smile ,your eyes, your kisses , but now all i see is you and your new girlfriend being happy ,just how we were back then , and it hurts to think that you were so special to me and i was nothing to you , just another girlfriend to your long list .I’m not ganna lie , when i think about you sometimes i feel so much hate as so for your girlfriend , but once i think about it , i really dont feel anything for you now ,its just the memories that kill me .It just gets me mad how you found someone fast and i tilll this day im single ,was i not good enough ? what was wrong with me that you left ? was it cause i didnt have sex with you ? if thats the reason , im sorry ,i really did think you were the one but , i just needed time to adapt to you ,its sad too think there was actually ganna have sex with you just so you could stay ,and that you were the only guy at school that i wanted and now ,every guy at school seem ugly to me .uhhhggg i hate you , but i just dont care ,it just pisses me off how you made me go thru so much emotions ! like if it was nothing …n i feel like you turned me into this monster i am today ,so many ,so many sweet guys have tried to talk to me ,but i just end up playing them cause i feel like i could never have feelings for a guy like i did for you cause im going to end up getting hurt AGAIN !, sometimes i wonder if you think about , or if you take a second to look at me ,but im crazy , why am i thinking of you if you have a girllfriend ?! i sure wouldnt like it if my boyfriends ex was trying to tallk to him …..i mean i do hate her guts because she was friend and then she got with you but whatever ,… im pretty sure your still with her cause she……nvm ahaha ;) …i remeber when we broke up we were still talking and you were begging to talk with me and i would be a bitch to you but you kept on trying , and one day you came up to talk to me and i ignored you so you walked away into your class ,then i realized i was being to harsh , right after the bell rang i was waiting for you outside class and i called your name and then you put your arm around me and we started walking and you told me ” babe dont be mad , were not ganna be ffriends forever” and when you told me that i knew that we might happen again ……. after that …you told me to go to liz 15 where you were coming out in ….and i went just for you , and you ignored me the whole night , so i left with my head down , the next moring you text me after weeks of not talking to me and you told me “you were sorry , and that i looked really pretty ” and as our convo went on ……towards the end you text me saying ” i love you ” for the first time …and my dumbass actually believed you for a second ,how stupid was i , that after you text me that i got more sprung off you….after all that you dedicated me a song “i dont deserve you” and when i heard that song i realized ,you may have the reputation of a player , but i know for a fact you really did care for me , you stopped talking to me because you didnt want to hurt me , cause you knew if you wanted to ,id probably would of had sex with you , but you didnt do that , and for that , you are always going to haave a space in my heart …..i hope that in the future we could be friends cause im never going to forget about you , how could i ? you were my first kiss! my first boyfriend ! and you met my mother ….oh my god dude i “loved” you so much !i hope that when were out of hiigh school we become friends and we could hang out and go out to partys together … not trying to be fucked but …i really do hope you break up with your girlfriend ahaha ..i hate her …anyways it was fun talking to your bitchass :) xoxox